I hate my half-concious brain

[jethrien]

You know that point halfway between sleep and awake where you're not unconscious yet, but you can't really control what you're thinking? I'm pretty convinced that my id is the last thing to go to sleep and the first thing to wake up. Because I can be perfectly fine and know that everything's going to be ok despite minor stumbles, but when I get almost all the way asleep suddenly OH NOES WE'RE ALL GOING TO DIE BECAUSE WE COULDN'T CHECK IN ONLINE AHEAD OF ARRIVING AT THE AIRPORT!!!1!!1!11! I swear I barely slept last night. And then woke up at 5:30am. Seriously, I know conciously that everything is going to be fine. But I can't convince my subconcious of this.

(Besides completely inappropriate terror, half-asleep me is also prone to fits of dazzling, uncontrollable rage. Chuckro continues to survive, despite such incredible crimes such as twitching or breathing a little too loud, solely because while half-asleep me only takes over after the sleep paralysis kicks in. Conscious-me loves my husband and thinks he's terrific. Half-asleep me hates everyone in the whole world with a fiery undying RAGE-FILLED HATE and would cheerfully set everything on fire because of that BUZZING, WHAT IS THAT BUZZING MAKE IT STOP I HATE EVERYONE. Half-asleep me is not very nice, and I'm glad she isn't physically capable of moving.)

Comments

[ivy03.livejournal.com]

Also, have fun on your trip! You may not get much rest, but OMG YOU NEED A VACATION.

[jethrien.livejournal.com]

Good god, yes. Before I take several of my coworkers, whom I do in fact like, and bash their heads against each other.

Fortunately, I'm working from home today. Working from home is weird - my productive times are far more productive and my unproductive times equally so. It probably evens out to an average day, but I'll have an hour where I'm far more productive than I ever could be at work, and then instead of fifteen minutes of reading the New York Times, I'll spend an hour watching Lady Gaga music videos and wondering if my hips can even do that and then giving myself bruises when I run into the wall trying.

[trinityvixen.livejournal.com]

Hee!! That last sentence made me snort aloud. Sorry to mock your pain, but, wow, that image was hilarious.

Have a good trip!

[maydove.livejournal.com]

Which video are the hips-bruising moves from?

[jethrien.livejournal.com]

Alejandro.